I’m not entirely sure if anyone will notice, but I did delete my account. Two seconds after I deleted, I made a new one…and even designed it exactly like my old account. It wasn’t because of me disliking my account or Tumblr blog, but I never was really careful about what I put on the internet about myself and other people. More and more people followed me that I didn’t know, and I didn’t want to put myself or anyone I may have posted about even two years ago at risk. This includes pictures and stories, all saved to a paper journal now. I also re-blogged more pointless images and sorts that are of no help or inspiration to me, they were just so “pretty” at the time. That’s not to say that I don’t love seeing them. I just believe sometimes, that stuff is better off just “liked” instead of re-blogged. The way I see it, is that I probably don’t need to re-blog that picture of a leaf with 30,000 notes. It probably appeared on almost all dashboards at least three times anyway.

Honestly, it made me feel cluttered. And my life feels cluttered enough. It just didn’t feel right for me.

What’s funny about that statement is that I do plan to be more personal in this blog…just a more careful sorts of personal. More aware that, as much as we don’t admit it, we keep “blogs” for the reason that people can see them. If you truly wanted your life and everything private, there are options like password protected blogs (tumblr), anonymous listings (wordpress/blogger), or “friends only” (livejournal [which I haven’t been on in YEARS, is it even still relevant?]), or my way…I write in a college ruled, 70 sheet, wireless notebook. That is my word-vomit book. Honestly, I originally wanted to switch to Wordpress. And depending on where this blog goes, I still might. For now I like how easy Tumblr is to update from my phone and how easy it is to access your guys’ blogs.

I tried to go and follow the majority of people I did follow on my old account. Because I really truly do love you guys, you all inspire me, and that’s why I stayed. I love reading your guys’ work, and even seeing what you re-blog. I love the tumblr community, and the friends that come from our sporadic posts. I know that a lot of the times, our lives aren’t perfectly reflected through tumblr. But I think what sets us apart is our inspiration, our creativity, our POSITIVITY that probably comes from our, and our followers’, sporadic posts.

I do want to use this site to improve myself. This sounds cliche, and really is, but the new year is approaching. 2011 wasn’t kind to me. October and November were the worst months of my life (and that’s not an exaggeration) and I need to start picking up the pieces of whats left of me, and start moving on. With the past six months I’ve had, I really want to make some changes with my lifestyle. Mental, and physical. I want to force myself to get into challenges. Maybe start with a seven day challenge, then try a 14 day challenge, and so on. I’m posting this because I want to be held to it. Even if no one sets a damn eye on this page, I want to feel like I have to do it. I want to be honest with myself. I want to find out what I can accomplish. And this will be my story of it all.

With that said, you guys will be seeing a lot of habits forming on this. The majority of which YOU guys have inspired me to do. Now, I won’t be perfect. My spelling, grammar, and punctuation suck. I know. I may not post for ten days. I may forget to record an amazing moment I wanted to share. I may even break a challenge! (I hope not.) But, I need to try.

Here we go. :)